There is no hope of ever finding what you want until you begin and, make a commitment to continue and never stop, except the search gives you what you want.
But before you begin, be certain in your heart that your search is for things that exist, things that can be found and things that when found, make you more generous and more compassionate in your dealings with other human beings.
Be mindful of the natural right of others to an unencumbered life. Be careful to stay on the path you have created for yourself. This is very important so that your search for meaning doesn’t constitute a stumbling block on the path of progress of others.